Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Good Things To Come

I sure do love the Fall.  I looked down one day and thought it looked so pretty that I took this picture:) 
It was so fun to be wearing boots again and crunching leaves with every step!
A couple of weeks ago I was feeling really sad, which is weird since I seriously do LOVE this time of year! I think I had been really missing my life in Utah surrounded by my family and so many great friends.  It is so hard for me to be far away from everyone--especially as the holidays come around.  In our family that starts in October.  My Mom throws an absolutely amazing party for Halloween.  It is so fun-- I see all the pictures and I ache to be there!
I am not sure  if it was that or other things weighing on me that brought it on so strong but I couldn't shake that underlying sadness and hurt in my heart.  I felt like tears were just below the surface half of the time. 
I had been praying about it but not feeling any better.
Then I went to church and in our sunday school class
I read this quote in the lesson from  Spencer W. Kimball:
"I find that when I get casual in my relationship with divinity and when it seems that no divine ear is listening and no divine voice is speaking, that I am far, far away.  If I immerse myself in the scriptures the distance narrows and the spirituality returns"
It felt like a little message from heaven meant especially for me! I knew that I had become "casual" and could do better.
So I took it to heart and really doubled my efforts--spending more time in the scriptures and making sure to listen to at least one conference talk everyday.
I COULD NOT BELIEVE the difference!  I started feeling so much happier and strengthened.
I had a hope that this is right where we are supposed to be and there are good things to come:)
It was a testimony to me of the scripture
"Draw near unto me and I will draw near unto you;
seek me diligently and ye shall find me;"
(D&C 88:63)
I know without a doubt that our Heavenly Father loves us very much.
So much that He gave His son to suffer all our pains, heartaches and sins for us. 
I know that as we strive to be closer to Him, the burdens we carry no matter how big or small can feel light and we can be strengthened.
I am so thankful for the gospel of Jesus Christ and the happiness and peace being a disciple of Him brings to my life.


Heather said...

I hear you. All family in Idaho and Las Vegas and Christmas Eve is just sad bc all the cousins get together (50!!) and I see the pictures and it's sad. I have filled our Christmas Eve with a Jesus dinner and the missionaries. then I don't have tiem to think about the other stuff. And for our first year, we are doing Thanksgiving just us. I was getting a little down bt thought of the idea to have the kids write down all their blessings on a white plate and we are going to bake them and eat off of them. Families are forever and so grateful for it. You are an inspiration. I even wrote about my experience here if you are interested.

Debbie said...

I literally just printed that exact quote from Pres. Kimball yesterday for my young women! Such a great quote and concept!
Be of good cheer! Life is so good!

Susanne said...

I'm so happy I saw this. I can so relate to this feeling especially now as we deal with job loss and have no family nearby. Thank you for what you share on your blog. I always feel so good after "stopping" by.

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